tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701988733209546782024-03-13T16:14:03.913-07:00My Journeynew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.comBlogger111125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-21741482283670383782014-02-05T07:53:00.000-08:002014-02-05T07:53:38.152-08:00My Beginning Thoughts on Death From Drug AddictionRecently a famous and heralded actor died from a heroin overdose. Several days later this news is still blaring from my television; and the internet is buzzing about it. Social media was on fire for a day or two with the usual rants. Some saying what a shame; others saying oh well another dope fiend gone. That type of thing. It sturck me how little has changed about the way people perceive drug new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-84612471254242464902014-01-22T12:26:00.004-08:002014-02-05T07:17:23.254-08:00Snowy Winter BluesIt's snowy and frigid here where I am making my new life. Sometimes I really miss the warm/hot climate where I lived in the plural family. Even if it got cold it never lasted long. I miss the heat. And I miss the little boy who stole my heart.
“If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart. I'll stay there forever.”
I said almost those exact words to him once.new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-1987489007313131642013-12-21T06:26:00.000-08:002013-12-21T06:26:12.408-08:00The Reason for The SeasonEvery year it seems the debate over "Merry Christmas" seems to grow and grow. Do we say Merry Christmas to everyone? Should Merry Christmas be written or said in various situations. Doesn't Happy Holidays make so much more sense? After all not everyone celebrates Christmas. .... and so on and so forth.
When I used to send many Christmas cards I made a point of having a "Merry Christmas" one for new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-51356545234904877322013-11-05T07:17:00.001-08:002013-11-05T07:17:54.221-08:00Vanity, where are my teeth?Did I mention my tooth loss issue? I really don't even like talking about it because it makes me feel stupid and a bunch of other things including angry.
I never liked dentists. Sorry. Just never did. But I've had extensive work done over the years. Lots of crowns and so forth. Right before I started on that journey of mine I had several root canals and crowns. I spent a ton of money. You could new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-44298979776923971452013-09-22T09:40:00.000-07:002013-09-22T09:40:08.884-07:00I am trying out Gray/GreyI wish the color gray/grey didn't have two spellings because I can never decide which to use and don't know if there is a difference. At any rate, I seem to be trying out gray hair. Sigh. I've been coloring my hair since I noticed that the little bit of gray I had wasn't so little anymore. Yes, a long time. I've bleached it; highlighted it; covered it; and since moving in with my former hubby new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-14839516627782441572013-08-15T12:24:00.000-07:002013-08-15T12:29:33.156-07:00The rest of the year.........Summer's almost over. That bothers me, I never feel that it's long enough - like a kid who doesn't want to go back to school, I mourn the end of summer. There are a few things I like about autumn/fall. The leaves turning beautiful colors. Crisp but not totally cold air. The smell of a school all cleaned up, polished and ready for its students. Indian summer....when and if we have one. That's new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-23404972118407463872013-08-03T07:21:00.000-07:002013-08-15T12:28:50.133-07:00Summer MusingsI am not going to complain today! That is my new mantra. I hope it helps.
My little garden~ Outside my kitchen door I have use of a small part of the yard. There is a small, very small, little slate area and then grass. The landlord said I could do whatever I want back there. So..I made a pot garden! lol Pots with plants on either side of the door. I have lavender, Italian parsley, chives, new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-4927170558799906842013-06-25T06:45:00.002-07:002013-06-25T06:50:07.777-07:00To The Beach!It's been three months since I've posted here and I miss it. I miss putting my thoughts down on virtual paper and getting insightful comments from followers and friends.
So here I am. It's almost the end of June. Still have not retrieved my things but I will when I'm ready. As Older and Wiser pointed out it's just stuff.
For the past 9 months I've lived alone in a little but nice studio new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-24863063628495958052013-03-19T10:26:00.001-07:002013-03-19T10:27:04.140-07:00Suggestions anyone? And a brief update.I feel the need to start another blog on another site, just because. Haven't decided on the new site yet and still thinking about subject matter. I know it could just be ramblings but I'm not sure I want to do that. So - I've thought about a "Grandma" blog. Would call it, "Gramma's blog" and muse about being a grandmother and all that positive usually anyway lol stuff. A little advice for other new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-56553651928505371162013-02-18T11:04:00.002-08:002013-02-18T11:05:56.249-08:00Relationship markers; internet friends and some other stuffFirst Christmas without your ex; first Valentine's Day etc...I must confess missing my plural relationship is not a daily thing..it had just gotten too hard. One thing I've noticed though is that it must have really filled up my life because I have too many days with not much to do.
I am glad to see NTPW posting again and Older and Weiser having some well deserved success. It seems many of the new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-40211592176002607862012-12-15T07:59:00.001-08:002012-12-21T04:48:58.090-08:00A Town and a Nation Broken Hearted There is nothing worse than losing a child.My parents lost a child, my infant brother. Relatives say my mother was never the same. I only knew her really after the fact and she seemed fine to me, but I'm sure they know what they were talking about. I know she was overly cautious with us at times. I don't really remember her having a sense of humor. And she never talked about it. Never. Neither new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-21826982461430799942012-11-23T09:38:00.000-08:002012-11-23T09:40:10.769-08:00Thanksgiving ReflectionWow, didn't realize it had been two months since my last post. Settled in to a small, very small apartment, more like a room with a closet of a kitchen, but oh well. Who do I have to cook for?
I have reflected some on what I have to be thankful for this year:
For one, I am closer to my children both physically and emotionally. Although since I spent almost every day the past year with my oldestnew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-59896162585252859592012-09-22T13:11:00.001-07:002012-09-22T13:13:44.865-07:00Dream EndedMy journey in plural marriage is done. Foolishly I thought being away would perhaps spark the old feelings and rescue what was left of my part in the marriage...I was wrong.
The youngest boy kept me there...actually, I do believe he kept me alive during the worst of fighting breast cancer and during the worst of the marriage. I had known him since he was barely two years old and I could see my new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-18284021211842123202012-08-15T11:21:00.000-07:002012-08-15T11:21:13.656-07:00Not quite farewell.It's been a year now....It actually went faster than I thought this being away from my poly family.
Things aren't perfect here where I am at the moment either...nothing is perfect, you would think by this ripe old age I would know that! I am planning a trip back home hopefully this Fall...wish me luck!
I'm thinking of starting a new blog, since I have little to say about polygamy at the momentnew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-29319575310801520222012-07-26T08:53:00.001-07:002012-07-26T09:24:23.048-07:00Dreams and Ambitions and LifeSo through the generosity of a family member I have had the good fortune to be able to watch a show on HBO TV called "Newsroom". I'll be honest the first episode didn't impress me except for the wonderful performance turned in by Sam Waterson. However, I felt compelled to keep watching. There have been 5 episodes thus far, each getting better and better, but that's not why I'm writing this.
I'm new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-81425350916638041642012-06-16T09:34:00.000-07:002012-06-16T09:34:12.513-07:00depressionI didn't realize how long it had been since I last posted. No excuses, I just haven't felt like it. This journey .... I don't know what to say anymore frankly. To be even more brutally honest, my depression seems to have overwhelmed me.
I've suffered from depression on and off for most of my adult life, or so it seems. Throughout my 20s, 30s and even 40s, I managed to control it by myself. I new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-20831094772645506492012-05-10T11:10:00.001-07:002012-05-11T07:02:46.858-07:00A good day for America and for us
I don't know if any of you are for or against gay marriage. It doesn't really matter to me because I truly believe that we are all entitled to our different opinions. I just happen to agree with Clint Eastwood,over 50% of our citizens including Dick Cheney, and the President of the United States. After all, as Robin Williams has joked, why shouldn't gay people have the same right to be miserablenew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-62766943552933455142012-04-16T12:43:00.001-07:002012-04-16T12:48:42.159-07:00Friends Who Ask Nothing
I don't really see myself as a painter/artist, writing is what I do, but I've been painting quite a bit lately. It's relaxing. the lighthouse is an old painting done for the painting class when I first moved across the country. I remember going to that class, a senior education class at a junior college, and feeling so strange with a roomful of strangers. I came to feel like that class wasnew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-26588484153558725462012-03-27T12:49:00.001-07:002012-03-27T12:51:20.692-07:00Good news and conflicts I think about constantlySome good news...I am painting again. Completed two new paintings and gave them away. I wasn't very thrilled about them because they were in a new medium for me, acrylics, but the people I gave them to liked them so voila, instant gift! D asked to see some of my work, as soon as I can figure that out I will share.
Some not so good not so sure news...I still don't know when I will be returning tonew#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-71960270987317958442012-03-06T12:04:00.002-08:002012-03-06T12:11:35.929-08:00Writing and PaintingI used to think I couldn't paint...well I can't lol very well...but it is the hobby I took up when I moved to Hubby's part of the world, as a way of meeting people etc. I believe Hidden Sage first suggested it. I met this group of women roughly my age who while I didn't have a hell of a lot in common with them, I liked them. Of course, the friendships only went so far as I didn't feel I could new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-18864996197083751312012-02-23T08:06:00.003-08:002012-02-23T08:26:44.215-08:00An Update of SortsI haven't posted in almost a month because honestly, I don't have much news. Things are the same. The new doctor was nice enough and I have no bad news to report from tests and such. Thanks for asking though BC. Well, ok, there is something that is irking me. Hubby's youngest son is getting married. It's not the marriage that is irking me, although I am one of those people who believes in folks new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-69870662443720160582012-01-26T10:58:00.000-08:002012-01-26T11:14:26.403-08:00Cancer Changed ThingsI wasn't able to fly home for my 6 month check up with my oncologist, so I found one here...It was kind of weird going to a different doctor but I did it yesterday. Somehow this feels like an accomplishment :) I didn't fly for several reasons, the two most important: 1) It was too expensive. and 2) I was nervous about it. It seems like I've been gone so long...I am worried about my relationship new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-1353201797351944642012-01-15T08:51:00.000-08:002012-01-15T09:23:18.131-08:00Politically Speaking This Is MePolitically I guess you would say I'm a liberal Democrat...to some that would seem a contradiction to plural marriage. To me it makes sense. Political conservatives (and most Republicans) are not in my humble opinion socially inclusive. Most don't believe gays should marry, or adopt, or in some cases even exist. Polygamy? Plural marriage? Alternative life styles are not their cup of tea. Which new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-38706429902233471912012-01-07T09:44:00.000-08:002012-01-07T10:07:06.363-08:00Forgiveness is the Solution to Everything....Courtesy of Steven TylerI haven't written here in a while mostly because I was feeling like I was whining too much. But I have something I would like to share.I'm not a HUGE fan of Oprah Winfrey but occasionally she does something that strikes a chord in me. She has started a new show on her network OWN, called The Next Chapter. Her first show was a two hour long interview with rock icon Steven Tyler at his home in New new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-270198873320954678.post-88160253514420167492011-12-17T16:11:00.000-08:002011-12-17T16:59:39.183-08:00Christmas and New YearsI've always had a hot and cold relationship with the Holidays. As a child I used to throw up every Christmas Eve...I guess the excitement. As a teenager and college student New Year's Eve was always a time of angst for me. I wasn't allowed to go out with friends or even to a house party. I was expected to stay home with the family. We had a party at home and it wasn't all misery but it usually new#3http://www.blogger.com/profile/08502107324722814488noreply@blogger.com5